Letters to our Sons > February

I’m very very very excited to join a group of women who have spent the last year writing monthly letters to their sweet little boys.  I knew when I heard about this project that I wanted badly to participate.  This is something my boys could read later in life to remind them of how much I love them both and how special they will always be to me.  My memory is so bad that this will help to capture the funny little stages they go through and show how much things can change within a few months.  My ‘plan’ is to make a nice press-printed album for each of them containing the letters and pictures from each post.  They are obviously too young to appreciate this gift now but I know in my heart that they will cherish it when they are older.  I will be alternating each month between them so they can have a post ‘all about them’.  Since Zach will be turning 6 in March, February will be dedicated to Connor.

 

To my sweet Connor,

Time is flying by for me.  I feel like it was only yesterday that we were preparing for your birth and worrying about how Zach was going to handle sharing the attention he was used to receiving and now here you are in kindergarten. As a December baby, I fretted over how tough I imagined school would be for you, being the youngest by almost a year to most in your class but you surprised me.  Don’t get me wrong, you got off to a rocky start (ahem…three notes from the teacher in one week about you throwing toys at kids heads) but your teacher has assured me you are progressing wonderfully and rarely hears the word ‘No!’ from you now.  I wish I could say the same ‘sigh’.   Although you can be a stubborn little man, you melt my heart with even the hint of a smile.  You are already aware that you can get anything you want out of me with the right amount of charm.

Your giggle is my most favourite sound in the world.  You giggle over everything.  It’s so contagious and puts a smile on the face of everyone around you.  There is something really special about you that people are so drawn to.  Even my grandfather (your ‘Papa’ who just celebrated his 89th birthday) has the biggest crush on you.  He talks about you and asks about you all the time, so much so that I sometimes worry it’s going to upset the members of our extended family.

Your imagination blows me away. You and Zach can spend hours up in the playroom acting out scenes from stories you make up, and at the moment are both fixated on Skylanders.  I will sit outside the door and just listen to the two of you, trying my hardest not to giggle and give myself away.   But you’ve been upset lately because Zach has started playing video games and your hands are still too little for this. I think you feel like you are losing your playmate but please know that Zach will get bored of this soon and come back to you…if not, I promise to limit his video-game time even more for you.

You are very thoughtful for someone so young.  You seem to sense when I (or anyone for that matter) need a kind word or a hug, and I cherish this about you.  But lately you are the one that seems to need the hugs and I worry about this.  You have become more attached than usual to me, wanting me at your side at all times, even waiting outside the door of the bathroom for you…what is going through your mind I wonder.  I know this past year has been tough for us all, with your daddy and I separating, but I really hope you know we both love you so much and you and your brother will always be number one in our lives.  You and Zach are all I think about when you are not with me.

You may not remember but in the fall of 2012 I asked you a bunch of questions and I sat you down today and asked you these same questions again and like last time, tried my hardest not to laugh at your answers.  Here are some of the questions I asked and hopefully I’ll remember to do this each year as you grow (and yes that is tape on your mask…you broke it and made me tape it back together for you):

There is so much more I want to say to you but I’ll leave it for the next letter.  I’ll end this one by saying the same thing we say to each other before bed:  I love you more than anything, everywhere and everytime.

Love Mommy xox

Please follow along with our wonderful blog circle by visiting the talented Julie Harding Photography to read what she has to say to her adorable son this month.